It's been forever since I updated this thing...Im not gonna talk about Sakura con 2008 cause that was just a horrible con experience,I seriously wish I would of never went! Anyways...I've been going through ALOT of Emotional things and my inner self as well,It's been realy tough,I've come to realize that with myself...Sure,I have alittle attraction to Guys,But I only do it cause I want to be "normal",Somehow sometimes Im ashamed of my own skin,of who I am,I came out 3 years ago and though it feels great to let people know Im gay,it still hurts alittle cause I know its not something my parents want to see their daughter go through...I know if Im with a guy,I will be VERY unhappy...I cant hide my desire of wanting that perfect happy love with a WOMAN. I don't care if it's wrong,or if it's a Sin...I just want to be happy... This road...just has not been easy for me. To anyone who disagrees or is in disgust,I would say "I'm sorry" but Im not gonna apologize anymore for someone I apparently am. I deserve only the best and I deserve to be happy. Anyways,I wanted to let everyone know I AM okay...just suffering here and there with emotional stuff and depression NOT fun,and the sun needs to come SOON!!! I am so sick and tired of this RAIN! I hope everyone's well and happy/lovely!

-Ayumi